Night without star

Dear diary,

 i feel very upset with my awesome boy for telling me that I shouldn't conceal my feeling by my own; but at the same time mad at me for telling him all my insecurities. My heart breaks everytime i know he's blocking me on my soc media, thinking that im no one for him, thinking that he has something to keep as a secret between us, also thinking that im such a 🕵🏼‍♀️ between he and his friends. My heart aches whenever i told him this, and I'm getting cussed instead. im just hoping for explanation and a bit persuasion, but ended up he mad at me so bad, telling me all those bad things. I feel so disappointed. Although he's such a temper boy, but i can't deny that i still love him, my awesome boy who always make me laugh, who always motivate me whenever i feel down, who always make me smile everytime his name pop-ups on my notification. Only god knows how i miss him. But for now on, i cant think straight. I've no idea what to do. Telling myself to not putting any hope on people. Telling myself that i can live by my own, also telling me that i can handle my own problems without telling anyone ever again. I will never. :) 

#alwayswaitingforyou #missingyoursmilingeyes #andyourvoicealso